I sit in a darkened valley. The sweet smell of the flowers pervades the air. The distant rush of sweet, mountain waters fills my ears. The heat is palpable. Behind me stands my Instructor. Twenty years I've been here practicing. Twenty years of frustration and discouragement. Twenty years trying to get it right but stumbling over the simple notes of this melody. What tune is it? Is a piece penned by Beethoven? A composition by Mozart? A symphony by Liszt or Salieri? No. You know this piece. Everyone knows it. Mary Had a Little Lamb.
I know. You don't need to say anything! I know it's pathetic that I'm still messing up this ridiculously easy tune. I've had twenty years to get discouraged with myself. Twenty years to realize how truly daft I am. My opinion of myself couldn't be much lower. The only thing is...
It's Him. He's been here those twenty years with me. There have been times where I've been ready to quit trying. In fact, there have been times when I've actually thrown in the towel. "No sense in keeping this up," I say. "You've seen how slow I am to learn and how easy I am to forget. Come on, Teacher! Let's part ways! There are other, more talented students you could be teaching. You're much too important and your gifts are too great to be wasted on a dunce like me!" But he says no...
"Come on, Wes. Just sit down. Let's NOT part ways. And of course there are other more talented students than you out there! I'm glad you realize that. But what does that have to do with anything? You see, when I finally get YOU to play, that's going to make me look GREAT! Besides... I know you... you want to play. You want to improve. So come on back and try again."
And as I delicately put my hands on the keys again, I feel Him lean in and put His hands on my shoulders. I feel the hot wave of breath on the hair near my ear. "Someday, Wes... someday we'll stun the angelic choirs with the music you play. Someday. Just keep practicing."