I just turned to the Bible a few seconds ago. Just seeing the text in front of me again made me want to cry tears of joy. I haven't even hardly read any yet. I just turned there and read a few words. He is SO KIND! He will take you back! Just thinking that he is now looking down at me not with an "It's about time!" expression on His face but with a "I've longed for this moment!" expression. I listened to a very brief snippet of a sermon on the radio while back home. I turned it to a different station within a few minutes but the speaker said something that just seemed to be God's message to me. No matter how long you've been away… come back! If you've been out of His word for months or years even… just come back! There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus! He doesn't look down at you impatiently from the heavens! There is love in His eyes and a deep desire for communion with you!
My soul has been so harried this last long while. There have been days where I've even wanted to get into His word but it's like something is blocking me and pressing down on my soul the notion that God is a taskmaster or a stern grandfatherly figure rather than a warm, caring, compassionate Father who does not lay burdens on me but draws and pulls me in to experience His love firsthand. Sin is a strange disease that struggles with you to keep you from taking the medicine! I don't spend time in Scripture because a wrong picture of God is being pressed down on me; and when I don't spend time with God, the result is that this picture gets pressed down harder on me! If I just spent time in the Word, my vision would be corrected but it's like my vision doesn't want to be corrected so it tries to keep me from spending time in the Word.
All that to say, come back. Be harried no longer. Come back to the Word. Come back to Christ. He is so desirable! And He is so forgiving and compassionate toward you! Just get into the Word! Hang whether it's for the right motives or not and just get in there! Healing comes from God's hands! Get touched by Him even if you're covered in sickness!
